What a week! It's been our first week in the class Eternal Glory of an Intercessor. My internal world has been rocked. As Dale says, my legs have been cut out from under me.


It's been a hard week. We'd been contending ernestly over the elections. I'd been devoting time on the lifelines here (up in front of the prayer room, there are strips of red tape where you can stand if you want to specifically pray for the ending of abortion). Everytime I go up to the lifelines, I end up weeping. I would have such periods in the prayer room in St. Louis as well... times of deep anguish in prayer as God let me in on how His heart is breaking over the lives lost. Here, though, I'd stand or kneel and sob and wonder if that was okay. We're supposed to pray with confidence, sure that He'll answer. I didn't know how the tears fit with that paradigm. Thankfully, our Intro. leader addressed this as it is something God is doing in the hearts of a great number of people in our Intro group. He gave us a Biblical basis for trevail. Esther, Jeremiah, Hannah, Jesus... they all cried out in anguish in prayer. And now Corey is giving room for it in class. I know it isn't the only way He has for me to pray, but it is valid and Biblical. And it comes out of me whenever I pray for life. Which, this week, was a lot.


I cry out because there is lack of the knowledge of God in the land. I cry out because America continues to harden her heart to the Creator. I cry out for the sins of the nation, the blood that cries out from the land. The fellowship of His sufferings.


Someone asked how to reconcile this trevail with the fact that Jesus was annointed with joy more than His companions. We have a glad God. I rejoice when I look ahead. The story doesn't end this way. He's coming back. Jesus will rule on earth, bring everything under His dominion. It won't be a democracy. He will be king. But we won't have to worry about unrighteousness reigning. He will rule in righteousness and justice. He's coming. Seeing the way the world continues to go, the cry is finally escaping my lips "Come Lord Jesus!" ... Come, even though the events preceding Your coming include persecuation and difficulty. Come! Come make the wrong things right.


In times such as these, when I feel sick at the depravity of the world, the only answer is to press in harder. There is no other option. The only option for me Wednesday was to weep on the lifelines. Yes, sin will become more and more commonplace prior to the return of Jesus, but there will be pockets of mercy. Who knows but that He will relent and leave a blessing behind? If we will just turn we may be hidden in the days of His wrath.